i've decided to close down my deviantart page for awhile.

i never really update it anymore,
and i'm at a point where i don't want others to see my work, read it, or anything for that matter really.

i've decided the more i try to reach out to people, the more fucked over i get.

i'm a heartless bitch, and deserve an eternity of loneliness.

apparently when i try to be concerned about people, i just come off as a horrible person.

and its gotten me to the point where ive lost the only person i've ever really cared about, the one person who sought me out in a crowd of people, the one person i felt at peace with, and the only person i've ever loved, hands down, truely loved.

i may be young, but i'm not an idiot.
and i lost it.